Though I Chose Death Instead of Pointless Pain

May 31, 2020

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Each week we examine a theme from a variety of points of view. The theme for this week is grief in honor of those who have died of Covid-19 and of Memorial Day, which is celebrated in the U.S. on May 25^th.

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A poem to loved ones from someone who has committed suicide to avoid a painful death:

Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,

Please forgive the manner of my leaving.

My love and need for all of you remain.

I could not long such suffering sustain,

Nor would it long have held you from your grieving.

Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,

I hope that choice will not my memory stain,

Nor lead you to be wroth at my deceiving.

My love and need for all of you remain.

For only in you do I live again,

Woven like a wind into your weaving.

Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,

I put to you the plea of the self-slain:

To comprehend an anguish past conceiving.

My love and need for all of you remain

That all that I have been not be in vain,

But blend into the earth of your believing.

Though I chose death instead of pointless pain,

My love and need for all of you remain.

© by Nicholas Gordon

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This week’s theme: Grief

May 25: Early On, There’s a Point to Regret

May 26: Matthew Is Gone and Will Never Be Back

May 27: You Were for Us Not Only Love, but Bread

May 28: When Death Must Come at Christmastime

May 29: Frosty Died Last December

May 30: Thank You for Leaving Us Your Son

May 31: Though I Chose Death Instead of Pointless Pain